Thursday, December 25, 2014

An Easy Life

Sometimes I forget why I started this blog in the first place. A few days ago my  Aunt sent me a Christmas card with something written in it that reminded me and I suddenly missed writing here very much. She wrote that she enjoyed reading my blog and that I was good at it. 
I started this blog with two goals: to keep my friends and family abreast of our farming dream and to provide a creative outlet for me. I enjoyed writing and had a suspicion I was pretty good at it. So here's my Aunt telling me that I'm accomplishing these goals. Just the kick in the pants I needed. 
Though to be fair 2014, if possible, was even crazier than 2013. When will I get used to this craziness? I'm pretty sure before too long, I'll be wondering how I ever got along without it. 
I know I know....I keep throwing random photos in here but I took so stinkin' many thinking I would share them with you but never got around to it. 

Some good news: we are finally taking the plunge onward and upward and moving full to starboard onto the farm. Our tiny house out there will soon be occupied. Our big dream out there will soon be realized. Our standard faith soon to be tested. But we believe this is our true existence and weekly the signs back us up. 
Replace 'woods' with 'farm' and that's it right there.

There's that saying that when God closes a door he then opens a window. What the quote fails to mention is that He often shoves you through said window kicking and screaming despite the grace you keep wishing you could display. So, things aren't going according to planned but they ARE going and that is something. 

When I was a little girl I remember this poster in my closet of a girl my age on a balance beam in the Olympics with the saying: "Don't pray for an easy life, pray to be a strong person." Just the other day I overheard a conversation. One lady said she'd been praying to be strong and figured that's why God had been sending so many trials her way. She said she was going to stop praying to be strong and instead pray for an easier life. 
My husband put his hand through a tablesaw in 2013. I prayed to God to keep me strong. Through a loved ones' cancer diagnosis, a loss of income and many trials these last couple years, I never prayed to be a strong person until I was already in the midst of a struggle. 

I really don't think the equation is as simple as that lady thinks. You pray for Z and God gives you X + Y which then = Z. 
We get what we need from God and we hardly ever know what that is. We'll say we know, but then if we were right, no curveball thrown our way would ever surprise us. But guess what? It's not a curveball unless it surprises us. So pray for what you think you need, but be open to what you actually receive.